Reading makes my heart skip a beat like no human can
I have been managing borderline personality disorder through reading.
The week before 23rd march, 2020, I went book shopping after a little more than a year. Those were the days I was wholeheartedly was praying for a nation-wide lockdown in New Zealand, but never did I imagine NZ would be one of the well-managed country (that is a whole different story). Anyway, I brought precisely eight books; once lockdown hit, I was the happiest in a while (mostly because we got a one-month mid-semester break instead of 2-weeks). I had just started accepting the fact that I am struggling with my mental health. Eventually, in February 2021, I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and everything I felt and did suddenly made sense.
Now let’s understand what BPD is in brief: fear of abandonment, unstable relationships, unclear self-image, self-harm, self-sabotage, extreme emotional swings, chronic anxiety, constant feeling of emptiness and explosive anger issues are few significant symptoms of BPD. People with BPD are either genetically gifted with this disorder or have experienced immense trauma, usually in their childhood. They have a black or white reaction to everything, meaning they can go from 0 to 100 within seconds and return to zero at the same speed; this happens over a million times a day, unlike bipolar, which has this for…
